Someone come save me
These thoughts are my enemies
this thinking's unhealthy
all i need is a savior

I need a distraction
to give my feet traction
cover up my sunk tracks and
find myself a savior

now i'm running from home
never felt so alone
escaping yet prone
to yearning my savior

inert feelings cause tension
mental pathways, dissension

*sigh* i wish i'd written more... tell me what you think, let me know what i can change, what i can fix, what i can add... peer edit plz...

I just had this really weird idea to start typing whatever happens in my day, kinda like a vice versa to you, lol. sorry if it offends you or whatever, if you don't want to hear from me, then you can just say so.

Ok, so i woke up today at like 10:30, it was awesome. then i got on my computer, and just messed around, on facebook and whatever. then i played some game for a while and left for school. i had my one and only class (chem) today at 1, so i was there a few minutes early, and i was texting my mom about whether i needed to pick up my sister or not, and she said yeah. then i asked her a ? and she responded by CALLING.. while i was in class. (btw my "open text" button is the same as "answer call" button) and i had it on vibrate, so it had the same ring, as well. so i clicked it to answer the text, but my mom answereed the phone, and started yelling HELLO?! HELLO?! and it was like silent in class. and everybody looked at me, and i said "excuse me for a sec" and walked out of class as fast as possible.. then towards the end of chem, mr callen did an entire equation on the board to show how the "ideal gas" law can be used in a specific situation. the equation was a hydrogen gas meets with an oxygen gas at STP and the join to create a water vapor. and  we had to use avogadros hypothesis (22.4 liters @ STP = 1 mole) and he did the entire problem (about 7-8 minutes of work) then when he was finished, i raised my hand, and he called on me, and i said "but wouldn't water be a solid at STP?" (implying that the gas law would NOT work.) and he was like ".........wha?" then the whole class was silent for a sec, while they thought about what i said, then about half of the people started laughing. including mr callen. then that was the end of class.. so chem was really fun today, i got to make people laugh..

then i sat in my car for like 20 minutes texting people, cause i had like an hour to be at redwood to pick up felicity. and when i drove to redwood i sat THERE for like an hour, before my sister showed up at like 3:45... and guess who she was walking with... RAY... i was like... this is really weird. esp since i know what he did while he was dating you.. i was like.. no.. then he walked felicity across the street, then walked baack on campus. it was VERY awkward.. but we went home after that, and just hung out until we met my mom for dinner @ tacobell. and after i dropped my sis off at her small group house, i had nothing to do for the rest of the night, so i started texting and calling people to see who i could meet up with to hang out, and the only one that actually responded to me was Sam, and he was at home, in Tulare with the flu.. so that was out... so i went and sat in the nursery @ church for about 2 hours, then talked to rachel afterwards... and we both agree that we need lives XD..

and now i'm in bed... thinking of you... and the times we had... and i'm VERY lonely.. lol.. but i'm working on getting over it.. it's gonna be hard though... i definately have more confidence than i did before i met you, and that makes me feel good...

well, i'm goin to sleep now, so reply in the morning if you want.. g'night.